A Noisy Gong.

So on the media fast, i said that i wanted to look at 1st Corinthians 13. Well, that was the plan, but it didnt happen, i wanted to look more at the whole chapter. I only got to 1-3.

If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.If I have the gift of ⁽prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing.And if I give all my possessions to feed the poor, and if I surrender my body to be burned, but do not have love, it profits me nothing.(nasb)

If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing. If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.(the message)

The second or third day of the fast i sat down in the back of the prayer room in the "booth" open my bible, and was ready. i was ready to dive into everything that was in the 13th chapter of 1st Corinthians...but when I read "if i speak with the tongues of men and of angles, but i do not have love, i have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal" and i started thinking...how annoying i would be if i kept having a gong or a cymbal in my ear. think about it...its fine for a little bit, maybe for like five seconds, and then i want to walk away. then i started to think how many times someone has spoken to me, and how i was fine for a little bit, and then it just got on my nerves...and i couldn't figure out why...and then i started to think how God feels when we just talk. (yes, he loves when we talk to Him.) then i thought about all the times that i have talked to God and nothing i said was in love. my heart was all jacked up. things i did i just did them, to do them...some times with love, sometimes with out...sooooo how does that sound to God? if i do something just to do it, or i say something just to say something? dont get my wrong , i know that God loves me...no strings attached..he loves me when i dont love. he loves me when i do love, He loves me. i know that...i am just saying...think about it...think about how annoyed, mad, upset we get when  someone does something or says something and we know they are just doing it to do it, or  saying it to say it? and then think about how we feel when someone says/does something in love, with love?  How does it make Jesus feel when we say we are doing something in the name of His father, but we dont have love, we dont do it in love? how does it make God feel that we are doing something in the name of His son, Who loves us, (and died for us...because He LOVES us?) but we do/say things just because....not in love or with love. OUCH! 

People always say that love is a big word. and never really understood that, at least when i was younger i didn't. When you choose to "follow" God, and ask Jesus in your heart...you choose to love. God is Love.(1st John 4:8) So I think,  when you choose God, you choose Love. when you choose love, you have to gain a new understanding of love, a right understanding a love. Love is a HUGE word! There is so much wrapped up in such a small word. 

So...to end this for now...if we dont have love (which is God) then we have nothing.